Another thing I realised...I just feel safer with women.
I guess that's why I have so many female friends.
I remember when I was a little boy, I was on a trip somewhere; Mum and Dad were in the front of the car (Dad driving- he always drove) and I was sitting with my Auntie Lorraine in the back.
I was feeling sleepy, so she let me lay my head down on her ample breast, & I slept soundly and peacefully. Like a baby.
I was not so sure about my Dad- I don't remember EVER feeling safe with him- but I DID feel safe with my Aunty Lorraine.
On some level deep inside me, I'm a little bit wary of men. In my twenties and thirties, I can remember starting fights with them in pubs. I guess this was partly to do with my conditioning (Dad spent endless hours teaching me how to hit other men, saying it was 'the only language they understood'), but I wonder if, on some level, I was not somehow getting them before they 'got' me.
Like the way I was conditioned to treat women; 'dump them before they dump you'.
I know not all men are like my father- not all men are savage, boorish brutes (just like not all women are angels!), but I simply feel safer with women.
I noticed they don't start as many major wars as men do; that says something.
Today, I give thanks for gentle feminine energy.
Thank you for making me feel safe to be me...& to treat EVERYBODY with love.
Heart.
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