Happy Father's Day, Dad.

I forgive you Father, you knew not what you did. 

I loved you dearly, and you punished me for it.

You were one very sick and troubled individual- & that was your bequest to me. 

That- and one huge 'how not to' manual for living.   

I wish you had the strength to make the choices I am making now. 

You were wrong when you said 'trust nobody'. 

There is always- if not the presence of someone good- then the hope of finding a good person.

Even if it is only yourself.

You had four good people- your wife and sons- who truly loved and trusted you.

But for you- that wasn't enough.

Until you drove us away.

In the end...your prophecy became fulfilled. 

And yet all you needed, finally, was to trust us- your family- & the better angels of your nature.

They were there, inside you, waiting for you to set them free.

All you had to do was have faith, let love, live joyfully...

& accept what was right in front of you.


RIP.