What the blazes.
I managed to get hold of a few snaps of the bushfires over the Blue Mountains.
I'm not going to throw adjectives around- I think these pics speak for themselves.
What I will say, however, is that my heart goes out to those who have lost their homes or loved ones in the blaze.
We also lost a pilot in a crash that occurred whilst he was feverishly trying to control some of this destructive rubbish.
Brave man.
RIP.
Spare a thought for those suffering down under...
& to those brave souls battling the Hell fire...
may you stay safe and strong until this is all over.
I'm not a Vegetarian-
apparently I am Pescetarian 'cos I eats me some fish.
But that's a little close to Episcopalian for my liking.
Plus...I won't be able to eat fish for much longer due to the radiation, so I will have to change again.
Curse these goddamned labels! I just want to be 'John' again!!
Down with the Label-arians!'
If you have negative voices in your head...
chances are, you will never get rid of them.
I'm sorry about that.
Sorry to have to tell you that.
Sometimes we have them for reasons that make them virtually inextinguishable.
& pathological or not...
whether they are schizophrenia or simply our rogue thoughts run rampant...
I think we're probably stuck with them.
HOWEVER...the good news is, you don't have to listen.
See...where we fuck ourselves up is we think that this is 'simply the way we are, and we are stuck with it', dark noise and all.
But the negative energy is a bit like having a grumpy crippled relative in the house.
They won't leave, they won't die...
they just constantly grumble.
I have noticed that, if I don't want to let that voice darken my mind and send me off into a shitty day, all I have to do is say,
'no thanks'.
Don't need this noise.
Then I walk out of that dark room this grumpy bum lives in, walk into a beautiful brightly lit room of the house with sun streaming in through the bay windows, nice music playing, incense burning,
and I remind myself...'today is going to be a lovely day full of wonderful things'.
Remember the saying- 'thoughts are things'?
You can have any thing your heart desires.
& that includes happiness.
Thanks again for taking an interest. Your thoughts are things too...and they are good things.
Peace.
Thank you for taking an interest, my friends.
Thank you for reading my work, and being so supportive of me during what is, actually, a kind of selfish process.
I know it is a selfish process.
I have enough empathy to KNOW this is the case.
I know I haven't had a lot of time for you- you know who you are.
I am thinking of you.
& it does not escape me, the way you have been checking on me, week after week.
You give, unselfishly; I find it breathtaking- I guess because I am unaccustomed to it.
ACTUALLY- this is old language.
I am NOT unaccustomed to it- that would be negating your continued presence.
Perhaps I am growing accustomed.
Learning to trust when people are kind to me.
I am also learning to detach myself from people who are not.
What they have to say about me has NO validity.
Any more than what my father said did.
I am NOT unworthy.
I know I am a much better person than I was,
and am improving a little each & every day.
I guess the evidence of that is the fact that I can now see I am getting better at pushing away the animosity,
and embracing the kindness;
instead of the other way around.
I intend for this new pattern of behaviour to continue.
No longer will I allow myself to be mired in negativity.
No longer will I allow vicious untrustworthy people into my life.
I will be the change I want to see.
& the book I am finishing will help.
Myself and maybe even others like me.
& I MEAN to finish this book...
even if it kills me.
& in so doing, put the past to rest forever.
I might take a little time to retreat & put this thing to bed once and for all, but I won't be far away.
I also have that health issue I mentioned which must be looked at.
You'll be in my thoughts.
I had two fortunes in the cookies at my favourite restaurant the other night; 'your good luck is in effect as of now',
and 'what you have been planning will succeed'.
You know me...I am just dumb enough, childish enough, hopeful enough to believe these silly little pieces of paper.
This final battle could well be the breakthrough I have been waiting for. Could happen!
In the meantime, I wish you bon chance, and once again...offer my humble THANKS for your love, and your forbearance.
When one is in this space- on the edge of a major breakthrough, one feels both excitement and trepidation.
You are never quite sure if you are going to skyrocket to the stars, or die horribly.
I hope it is the former-
so I can thank you one by one, and we can all celebrate.
Celebrate...the blessing that is our common, shared humanity.
Peace.
That moment when you are making love to a woman, and she looks directly into your eyes with complete love and trust...
that gently piercing look...the one that seems to enter the windows of your mind like a will o' the wisp,
eases right down into your heart...
and starts caressing your soul...
that's the real deal.
& It doesn't happen every day.
You have that...you have it all, my friend.
There is nothing like a wildly audacious move to shake things up when you feel you are stagnating.
Truly, there is simply something inexplicable inherent in the energy that goes into such a move-
a melange of faith, fear, courage, excitement...
a declaration of being receptive to unlimited possibility-
that just has some kind of mysterious knock-on effect on the rest of the planet & it's people.
You want opportunity to knock?
Take a wild, foolish daredevil STAB at something.
I know it's scary...
but it works.
The universe doesn't really know what else to do with such a person except to throw things at them.
Give it a go.
(nb: to the naysayers...you do NOT need money to be audacious. All you need is AUDACITY.)
Our spiritual evolution is unfolding on schedule.
Don't be alarmed if you think you are going mad; outrage and hysteria are a part of the process.
There was NEVER a way to Heaven...
without first going through Hell...
Never.
